Within You

The Midrash at the beginning of Vayerah says וּמִבְּשָׂרִי אֶחֱזֶה אֱלוֹק אילולי שעשיתי כן מהיכן היה הקדוש ברוך הוא נגלה עלי וירא אליו ה.  Rav Wolbe points out it is an interesting term for the MIdrah to use of מהיכן, from where, presumably the question is how, in what zechus did Hashem appear to Avraham, one would have expected it to say כיצד or maybe באיזה זכות, what is מהיכן?  In light of the Sfas Emes of the previous post, we can explain the Midrash is grappling with the question of was this revelation of Hashem an external revelation like prophesy or was it an internal revelation of Avraham recognizing the kedusha within himself as the Sfas Emes suggests.  That is מהיכן, where did this revelation come from?  Answers the Midrash מבשרי אחזה אלוק, it was an internal revelation which Avraham experienced and Avraham recognized that only came from the milah which peeled backed the layers of his גשמית חומרי blockage over his innate kedusha.  This may be peshat in the Midrash (95:3) that Avraham studied Torah himself, רבי לוי אמר מעצמו למד תורה.  How did he know the Torah?  He found it within himself, in his עצמיות after removing the external blockage.